*hugs* I'm sorry it's been so rough. Getting into a new fandom is hard. I'm struggling with that myself a bit right now, no longer having the community that I'm used to (I have a couple of cross-over people, but not many), and feeling impatient sometimes with how slow it's been to build new connections. Then I remind myself that it took many months and a collaboration before I really started meeting people in Final Fantasy, and it helps -- doesn't shut the Little Hater up entirely, but at least I get a break from her for awhile.

I hope you find something that works for you.