So...

[owlmoose]

This is the first time I've posted anything in over a month. Which means I skipped my writing goals post for July and have not yet posted one for August (and do not currently plan to do so). I also skipped both GYWO checkins and have barely noted any writing days during that time -- mostly ladybusiness anchor posts and in-progress notes for Monday Media. This is the first time I've straight-up skipped a writing goals posts since I started doing them regularly, over ten years ago now, and I don't have any good thoughts as to why. Work has been busy, but I've been busy with work before; my family is stressing me out, but that's not entirely new; I'm doing genuine talk therapy for the first time in my life, which has dredged up stuff to deal with, so maybe there's something there, but I can't find any sort of direct connection; I started playing Civ again, but that not enough of a distraction all on its own.

Ultimately it feels like a new and worse manifestation of the same problem it's been for years, which is that I feel disconnected from fandom community and don't really know how to get that back. I have connections with individual people, but that's not the same thing.

Thoughts are welcome, but that's not why I'm here. Mostly just wanted to pop in and assure everyone that I'm still around, if not talking much in my own space right now. I do still check in and backread every few days, even when I'm not leaving comments. Hope you all are well. <3

Comments

[tetralogy]

I've seen at least three people I subscribe to here mentioning that they feel disconnected from fandom this week. And I think I feel the same way? So it's definitely not just you!

Not that I have an answer for how to fix it, since fandom in general seems to be heading in a direction I have little interest in following, personally :\

[lassarina]

I've been re-energized about fandom due to some discords I've been in that have been really fun and full of the Kind of Fandom I Want To Be In ("everyone has different tastes and that's cool, zero bashing, we're all grownups here") but for years before that I was feeling really disconnected and tired due to [gestures in the vague direction of THe Antis Etc.], so. I feel you.

*hugs*

[elainegrey]

Welcome back! I hope you find the talk therapy helpful.